Hints of Gladness: Let it RAIN

Angst and Acceptance…

Maybe because it’s Monday, 

I feel a certain amount of anxiety 

about the things I have to do this week. 

I know I’ll feel better once I kick into 

work mode and get some things done. 

That said, I have been contemplating 

acceptance and change all weekend. 

Here’s how it goes: 

I need to practice radical acceptance, 

just like Tara Brach (one of my beloved teachers) says. 

I let go of the idea that I can change myself 

or even that I need to change. 

I focus my efforts on radically accepting 

every part of me, 

even the things that I consider to be 

flawed or bad. 

I accept the past or don’t even 

focus on the past. 

And on a personal note, 

(as if this isn’t all a personal note)

I just had this thought as I was walking along 

that one of my core feelings and neuroses 

is that I am not accepted. 

It comes from abandonment. 

I regularly say I don’t do alone very well. 

Maybe diving deeper into acceptance 

when feelings of not being accepted 

or abandoned or rejection surfaces will help. 

Of course, it will help. 

That’s why I think it’s good to practice with the tools. 

Practice acceptance during my meditation 

and contemplation times, 

and then I will be much more likely to remember 

and put acceptance to use when I need it.

I pulled this capture out of the camera today, I thought it was sort of interesting...

Angst and acceptance again...

I am having angst about a feeling that I am not doing enough.

I won't delve deeper now in writing.

I'll practice RAIN -

Recognize, Allow, Investigate, Nurture

and see what surfaces.

May I be of selfless service and may I respond in lovingkindness

to everyone I meet.

Take good care!!!

~ Rod